Domestic Geek

The overwhelming feeling that my whole life path is a mistake is creeping back on me. Where did I go wrong? How did I manage to screw my life up this bad? I know part of that sinking feeling is just that I'm coming up on that time of month. But just part of it. I thought by the time I hit 40, I'd have a pretty good idea of where I was going and where I wanted to be. The fact is, I've got less of a clue now than I have at any point in my life. Is it that nagging notion that I'd better hurry up and figure this out getting the best of me? I don't know. I had a thought recently that really freaked me out. If I've only got the same amount of time left on this planet that my mom had, I've only got 11 years left. See, she died right before her 51st birthday. All I do know is that I have never felt this worthless, confused, hopeless or frustrated in my entire life. It's hard to keep telling yourself you're smart and talented when you've been trying to find a job for over six months and nobody will give you a chance.

As usual, I found drawing by Hugh MacLeod of Gaping Void that depict exactly what I'm feeling right now:

I missed a call on my cell phone from my old supervisor at my old job. That's three times he called this week. Geez, wonder what the heck he wanted this time. He didn't leave a message, so who knows? What a loser jerk.

I'm in the middle of watching Click and I see that a whole bunch of puzzle pieces were released. Is something wrong with Christopher Walkin? I saw him on Regis and Kelly a little while back and he seems to be not all there. I'll have to Google that later.

Man, I totally forgot to eat. I guess I'd better go do that.

Well, I'm up now because I'm stupid. You think I'd realize that a dog of 14 years of age can't learn new tricks. We've got one of those raised up food bowls and a separate water bowl that has one of those Deep Rock-like containers to hold water that sits on floor level in an old dough tray. We got this setup because of the old Malamute we used to have. She would slop her water everywhere when she drank and had a hard time getting to her food because of her arthritis. I've been noticing that he's having a problem getting to his water for a while now. I decided yesterday to start putting his water in the other side of his food bowl (since it's raised) to help the poor guy out. Well, he won't drink the water in there. Marcus just caught him drinking out of the toilet since he apparently hasn't had water since I changed it yesterday afternnon and Marcus forgot to close the bathrroom door after he brushed his teeth. I was awakened by the dog pacing in the bathroom because he couldn't get water out of the toilet. *sigh*

A visitor to my TT had a Concert Ticket graphic for her list generated at Says-it. Hey Ash, have you seen the Chuck Norris Says... generator they have there?


There was finally an opportunity on PPP for an online printer, but this isn't exactly a business or graphics related blog, so I can't take it. Boooo!. I'm going to go ahead and link them, though, for my own future reference: BargainPrinting.com.

I want some more puzzle pieces, dang it!

Man, I've had the biggest problem with making posts today. I don't know what the problem was. Several times I have had posts all typed up, only to do something totally stupid and *poof*. All gone. *sigh*

Since no new puzzle pieces have been released today, I've been spending time elsewhere on the old Internet. I found a new read on the PPP forums called Brainstorming Diva. She linked a site that I hadn't been to in a long time: FlyLady.net. There's a whole lot more content there now. The site is dedicated to helping women declutter and organize their lives. She asks if you are living in CHAOS (Can't Have Anyone Over Syndrome)? Sadly, yes I am. You'd have thunk with all the extra time I've had being unemployed that I'd be all over my housework. Nope. In fact, it's the complete opposite. I felt a little dread when I saw the Postie Patrol thing the other day. As much as I'd like them to come visit me, I don't want them seeing my house in its current state. Today was Anti-Procrastination Day on the site. While it's too late to do much today, I'm going to tackle stuff full throttle tomorrow. I'm tired of being the Queen of Procrastination. I signed up for her Yahoo group. Hopefully that extra reminder and tips will get my inspired to clean up my messes.

The Sims2 Pets expansion is out. I keep seeing commercials for it on the television. I don't have any of the Sims 2 expansions yet. I put them all on my Amazon wish list, so hopefully someone will get me one for Christmas. I haven't let myself play The Sims in ages, though. I feel stupid trying everything possible to make my Sim's life good when my own life in in such a mess, y'know?

Well, I guess that's it for now. I've got a Thursday Thirteen to compose.